Today was Good
It’s nice having days where constant negative thoughts don’t run through your head (as much). Course now, being home, that’s completely different. The illusion has shattered. But it’s okay.
Half of my worries could have been avoided but like usual I’ve fucked it all up. You see, I’ve never been able to get things right. I have some self destructive tendencies. I remember my former best friend Mike telling me this and I refused to believe it. But it’s true.
But nowadays it’s mostly towards school and work. I’ve dropped dating so that’s at least one less thing to worry about. Mike always did say I dated asshole boys.
And I’ve lost my dear beloved Michael and I probably won’t hear him say “I told you so, buttmunch.”
But it’s okay.
I have so many dear friends. A few which are close and one that is the closest. And I’m grateful.